Heart Breaks

My heart is breaking for a very good friend of mine that i have known since high school, her sister and her partner lost their son Henry John Richardson/Reid may i please ask for everyone who sent prayers my way for Jade to please send them to my friends sister and partner who could really use them for strength to get through this horrible time :(

Sex

I am so looking forward to Daniel getting home on time from work (when ever that might be) i have finally stopped my PPAF and so looking forward to being able to jump him,

We havent been able to DTD since about 12 weeks into my pregnancy with jade, though i am kinda scared  of jumping him as i think it will hurt, and i am terrified of getting pregnant again :(

Information

I really want to add some information to my blog as links that can really help out you guys the ones who read my blog mostly, though i really dont know what to add... as i want it to be helpful for everyone and add more and more to it as i need to though i really need to know what you guys want on there,

Expressing log

I know i have done a lot of these, though i thought if i put the full list down, it might also be able to give me an insite with my supply and possibly get some help with what to do to increase it

9/11/11 - 32mls
10/11/11 - 67.2mls
11/11/11 - 75mls
12/11/11 - 74mls (emotional day)
13/11/11 - 69.6mls
14/11/11 - 73mls
15/11/11 - 72.5mls
16/11/11 - 77.1mls
17/11/11 - 110.5mls
18/11/11 - 170mls
19/11/11 - 140mls
20/11/11 - 220mls
21/11/11 - 280mls
22/11/11 - 245mls
23/11/11 - 320mls ( Jades quota is 312mls per day)
24/11/11 - 320mls
25/11/11 - 360mls
26/11/11 - 345mls
27/11/11 - 365mls
28/11/11 - 315mls
So far today  300mls (its only 3.35pm)


So as you can see it keeps going up and down Jades quota now is 345mls per day as she is on 29mls every 2 hours, and that will go up either tonight or tomorrow night when she gets re weighed, i really think i am going to have my work cut out for me, i am averaging 9 to 10 expresses per day, and trying my hardest to get up once during the night for an express, though i set my alarm it wakes me up i turn it off and i fall back asleep :(

Milk Supply

Well it looks like my milk supply is dropping :(
I really wanted to be able to breast feed this time around :(
I have been on the medication to help increase it though it was working until i got messed around by the doctor getting another script done and had to cut it down, so now i need to re build it back up

Jade is having a few breast feeds if she is awake and looking for it, she doesn't last long on the breast though i know she gets a bit of milk from me, as when they go to top her up will a full feed from her NG tube, they syringe at least 3ml out,

I have tried to up my protein intake as well, though its hard at the moment to get time to eat as i have been so flat out, trying to get sleep as well is the hard bit to,

I am thinking about buying though weight loss bars (not that i need to loose weight) so i can eat them on the run when i dont have time to sit and eat a full on meal, and i also know that they are high in protein as well,

Does anyone have any tips for something quick to eat that can help??

Nearly to an end

Well 2011 is nearly at an end, i really dont know where the time has gone, Or really what has happened this year, as the past 3 weeks have been a blur let along almost 52 weeks

So much stuff this year i am very thankful for,

The birth of Jade,
My husband
My mother (who has been here giving me a hand through the pregnancy and still helping out)
My close friends and family,
People all over the world for their prayers for little Jade
My boys staying healthy and growing strong,
my little angle Bryce watching over us keeping us all safe,

I really wonder what 2012 will bring for us? I am hoping to be returning to work, to give Daniel a bit of a hand, I hope the boys are a lot better behaved, and i pray that Jade will come out of all of this with out any brain damage, and that she will be home with us before 2012

Sorry

Im sorry that i havent been on much to update i  hardly find time to get on any more, i think i need to hook it up so i can blog on my mobile either if its a txt or email, though that might be easier,

Jade is doing well, she is now in Special Care, in bed 666 not to happy about the bed number though, we attempted our first breast feed yesterday she was great, had a bit of a problem getting her to latch on though she fed for about 5 to 10 mins, and then they gave her, her feed after though i think they might of over fed her LOL

Boys are doing good, not to much to report on them,

other than everything else staying the same i swear i am coming down with a head cold of some sort :( so that means i cant be up there to see my baby girl :(