Baby Girl

Well Jade is now in an open cot she is out of her incubator :) :) YAY and now wearing baby clothes, she looks so cute, and more like a new born now, also we breast fed yesterday again and she went for about 15 mins, then didnt give her a full feed of 31 mils after it they only gave her 20mls, i also have the Lactation Consultant there with me to whilst i was doing it, and she said that jade was excellent at it, and that we are to do at LEAST one breast feed a day and if she is wide awake and trying to suck on her hands we can give it a go then to even though it might not be her feed time at all, as she needs to start learning what hunger pains are :)

looks like there is a very high chance that Jade will be home for Christmas

Day by Day

So I am now taking each day as it comes with little princess and with life in general, way to much is going on that i am getting stressed about,
between house hunting, the bills that are never ending, little miss, and just general stress kids etc, its just way to much at the moment,
SO just going to take it a day at a time, i am sure little miss will grace us when she is ready,
I had a few false alarms yesterday with lower back pain coming waves and cramps on and off, though went to bed and woke up still pregnant so guessing its still a false alarm,
The false alarms are starting to become very annoying though i guess there is nothing i can do about them

Over It

I am so damn over it... things seem to be getting thrown at us left right and center its never ending....

Daniel and I have just over 3 weeks to move.. we have to be out of here by the 10th November whether we have a place or not... we have looked at quite a few, though the application form never gets put in on time, due to Daniel not really liking the place, and hoping that something better comes along.. or me being in the hospital and waiting for someone to bring the form up to me to fill in..

So on top of that i also received my car rego today that has to be paid for in the next couple of weeks ($304 for 6 months, or $583.60 for 12 months)
Plus a power bill that is now over due... We had someone here staying/living with us, that was meant to chip in and help pay for some of it as they were here for most of it though yeah haven't been able to get anything out of them o that (power bill was just over $400)



So on top of all this, my doctors have said that i need to remain stress free HA! yeah right, how can i be stress free with all of this going on????

Also i can go into labor any day so the anxiety of that is weighing don over the top of me as well... its honestly never ending isn't it.....

new Belly Photo

Thought i ould share today's belly photo, i think she has dropped again

House Hunting

Well we are still house hunting, i never thought it would b so hard to find a house that we like/need, we seen some over the weekend that we liked just need to apply for them, we have 4 more weeks until we have to beout of this house, I wonder if little miss will behave until then?

Getting Bigger

I thought i would share my 26 week belly photo, I am starting to feel huge, i Know i am going to get bigger yet, though i feel like i am as big as i was when i Had deacan

Safe?

what is it with people telling me i am "now at the safe stage?"


Yes i am now past viability though i'm not at the safe stage until i have my baby at in my arms, yes i might be at 26 week gestation, and the chances of her surviving are now better than what they were at 24 weeks though i have come to find there is no such thing as a safe stage until you have that child in your arms,

I dont mean to sound like a downer or anything though there are still so many things that could go wrong, i pray to god that it doesn't happen, and i will get to have my little girl in my arms, though people dont seem to understand that,

i am sure everything is going to go fine with bub, as i have had the steroid injections for her lungs and she should be a nice weight (still small tough better than what she was) so i have things looking up for me, though yeah, i wont feel "safe" until i have her in my arms and get to take her home

When it Rains it Pours

WOW talk about a stressful time,

Daniel and I worked it out and we have 5 weeks to be out of this house and into a new one, 5 weeks that's it, and it is so hard to find the right place, it needs to have 4 bedrooms, have a fully fenced back yard, i would like the kitchen to have a good amount of cupboard space, and cant be any more than $370 p/w
Daniel and i have found some that we like we are just waiting to hear back from the property managers to view the property,
I have never moved with the kids, last time that i moved Jason was still in hospital. so when we finally get a place i have told mum that i would like to move while the kids are in daycare, try to get as much as we can out and into the new place while te kids are out, as i can only imagine how hard it is to move with a 1 1/2 and 2 1/2 year old


Got the power bill the other day, bloody just over $400 and it is due tomorrow, i called the power company to ask for a payment plan, as i have been in hospital and it is to much to come up with all in one hit, tough do you think they would let me pay it off??  NO! I have to come up with $100 by tomorrow, then the $300+ in 2 weeks time, not to mention  all theotherbils that i have coming in

I know its just part and parcel with the real world, though why does everything have to come in at once,

I have rego due as well in a couple of weeks, that like $300+ as well  and it's not like i can put that one off. cos if i dont pay it i cant drive my car, and we use it to get the kids round and doctors etc!!!!!

Plus on top of all that i am still having contractions every day,  tough nothing tat is really regular or painful enough to have to go to the hospital, the doctors told me when they discharged me from hospital that i had to remain stress free, YEAH RIGHT!!! like that is going to happen, So i am scared that she can come any day like the doctors said though i am very grateful for every day that she is inside, though this waiting game is really doing my head in, I either want her to knock he crap off (false contractions etc) of just come out already (I WOULD PREFER HER TO STAY IN THOUGH)


Though yeah i guess that sums up the past couple of days, more than likely just a whole heap of randomness though also needed to vent,

25 weeks and 3 days


My new belly shot :)

New photos

Secrets out

Well my secret is out due to a very nasty person on facebook,
Daniel and I are having a little girl.....

16w1d

                                                             15w5d

                                                               16w1d



Well i had a Quick scan today to check if peanut was ok, due to the lack of movement and bad lower back pain, and pressure though peanut is fine has a heart rate of 156bpm and my cervix is now 35mm,  so even with the progesterone now, its kepingmy cervix long, there wasalso no funneling either sothats a realy good sign,
Im guessing i could feel peanut for over a day is because he/she is sitting right back low, like right up near my back, im guessing hence why  have so much lower back pain and pressure as well....

There was a huge debate thing on my facebook wall, about other ladies telling me to go p to the hospital ETC and get checked out and how i should be having steroid shot ra ra ra all that other bullshit, i dont really wan to go into FULL detail in why i did, though long story short, i have already been told "your baby is going o be born today and die" and i really didnt want to hear those words again, you can cal me selfish an a bad mother all you want though, words like that REALLY hurt at the best o times, let alone sitting in a cold, emergency room and getting told that again

I have my OB appointment on Tuesday, he is going to roll his yes at me and possibly have a go at me, im nearly 100% sure that my OB hates me... though there isnt much i can do about it but suck it up and deal with it.. then another scan on Friday, my big scan I'll be just over 17 weeks so hopefully i will be able to tell if peanut is a boy or girl, so i can stat giving it a name :) instead of just calling it peanut LOL...

Im not sure if i should tel people the sex of the baby, only because i remember the amount of crap i got last time when i found out Deacan was a boy, and i am REALLY not in the mood again for all that crap to start again, and either way people wont be happy and if they want a reason to bitch they will, though I am happy with either sex of the baby, a BOY would be great as i already have had 3 i have raised  2 and i know the boys will play great together, though a GIRL would be great to as i have never had a girl and  i want to do all the things that my mum never had done with me,

oh yeah here a list of my cervix measurements as well

13w1d 40mm
15w1d 31mm 

Progesterone pessaries started 200mg 1x a day
16w1d 35mm 


Any way that is it for now, i'll come back later and type, il try to have a VERY HAPPY blog post next time :)

14 weeks

Im 14 weeks today, its starting to go fast,
there is a max of 26 weeks to go i at least wanna go another 24 weeks,

im starting to get scared now though, as it is really starting to sink in, i am going to have 3 under 3!!!!!! how am i going to cope??? the boys get to me know, how am i going o go with 3???

Baby names

i need some hep picking out some uni sexed names, for peanut

dont really know any


Anyone know of some

So Scared

How am i not men to be scared?


I posted a thing about it on my FB just basically just saying that peanut was god, strong heartbeat though i had bleeding around y placenta


then a "so called" friend said this to me

"dont mean to scare you though that happen to me i lost my child at 16 weeks"

WTF!!!!! she know my history she KNOWS i lost my son from an  IC and a Placentral abruption.... you dont tell that to a mother!!!!!!!!

can't do it again

Im currently 13w2d pregnant


I have had a SCH since 6 weeks gestation, i have ad bleeding on and of all the way through, an i have had 2 gushess of blood in 24 ours, at bout 10 weeks,


I had my NT scan yesterday and the tech said that i have bleeding all around my placenta edges, and depending how she turn the rod thing she could make them all join to one big one, she also said that i am at higher risk of having  another abruption

I had one with DS1 and it basically killed me with blood loss, i am so scared its going to happen again,
Im so scared i am going o have to bury another child (mentally and physically i will not cope)
Im scared that this peanut will be born really early and we will not be as lucky as we were with DS2 and DS3

My cervix is 4cm log at the moment with no funneling or shortening, so i know thats a good sign, and peanut has a strong heart rate of 155bpm, so thats a god thing to, though i have all the other stuff running though my head,

yum!!!!

I feel like pan cakes, with maple syrup with cream and peanut butter, and chocolate topping!!!!!!!!

Watch my belly grow!!!

So i thought it would be a good idea, to  put all the belly photos up that i have and you can watch it grow as i have felt it grow

3 Weeks (Just found out)

4 Weeks

5 Weeks

6 Weeks

7 weeks

8 weeks

9 weeks

10 weeks

11 Weeks

12 weeks

I feel like it has grown heaps, though thats just me :)

13 weeks scan coming up

well on f\Friday the 8th July i have my NT scan for peanut, i'm really looking forward to it, i am hoping we are able to kinda see the gender of him/her, As much as i would love to have a girl (After having 3 boys) i think a boy would be easier...

Though as long as the heart is beating that is all that matters :)



Q, have you been for an early scan and found out the gender? if so how far along were you and was the gender prediction right?

Progesterone

So i called a couple of chemists today regarding the type of progesterone that i need and the prices for it, most of them come in a box 100, so for the 100mg box of 100 it costs $100 and the price goes up for the higher ones and its not covered by medicare or the pension card, so i need to come up with $100 upfront,
I really cant afford that to be honest,

I know you cant put a price on your unborn child's life, though by the time you pay rent ETC and dont even have $10 spare a week, how am i meant to come up with at least $100 I dont have private health insurance let alone being able to cover the fortnightly payments, plus be on the waiting period for 2 months before you can claim and i need to start buying it 

GRR what to do!!!!!!! plus to top it off the OB isnt giving me the stitch this time :(