About to Explode

I swear i am about to explode with anger soon!!!!!!!!

If everything else isn't enough that's going on at the moment, I know have debit collectors chasing me, for a power bill that's over due and an AVON account that is way over due

I have been stuck paying for just over $400 power bill, that i got while being in hospital pregnant with Jade, I was told by a person that is living with us that they would give us something for it to help out as they were sleeping in the lounge room where our plasma tv is and kept falling asleep and leaving it on all night, I told them that we got the power bill in and how much it was and all i got was "shit not good" after countless efforts to say that I couldn't afford still no money has been handed over for it!!!!!! so once again I AM stuck paying for it, and now have debit collectors chasing ME for it how the hell am i meant to pay whats owing ($302) plus the AVON bill of $190 by the end of next week when i am only on centerlink
I am still having to pay each week, the kids daycare, food for 4 adults and 2 children plus fuel for my car to get to daycare and back each week, and putting fuel in mums car so i can get up and see Jade everyday, if i drive up; i have to pay for parking, not to mention lunch while i am up there, plus also all the other bills that are in my name, and to top it off my car is in need of a massive service!!!!!


Like bloody hell what else can be thrown onto one person at one time!@!!!!! i really and honestly cant take any more,

I still feel like the bloody maid around this house, like yeah mum helps out though mum also runs me around to the hospital and back when i need to go up


though seriously how much is it to ask for someone else to stack the dishwasher or to do the dishes after i cook!!!!!!

I cant do this any more i am going to explode!!!!!!!!!

4 out of 8

So now it has been 4 out of 8 nights now Daniel  has woken me up rooting my butt my while moaning and gowning another chicks name this is seriously a joke now...... next time he does it i a going to grab it and twist it to the point he wakes up screaming or it breaks

Not happy at all...

im so not happy with Daniel, whats so ever....

First off now he is showing no interest in me what so ever, everything is an effort... a kiss or cuddle or holding my hand...
Told him i was going to buy him a new wedding band as his old one no longer fits.. he doesn't want to wear it....

And now to top it off he is adding all these pretty girls on facebook that live in Brisbane... and he is ALWAYS taking about a "Roxie" girl he works with, and wouldn't you know it she is smoking hot....

He knows i don't really trust him for past events that he has done, and now this.... and when ever i ask him about her he either changes the subject or doesn't answer me

Im over it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Vent

Ok i really need to vent, Im not going to put it in any order, or aim it at anyone, i just need to get this of my chest  and out of my head

I am over having to watch my mouth around other people, why should i be the one who is careful with what they say when others dont give a shit what they say to me, i Have to suck it up and deal with it, even if what they say to me hurts me, though they are able to say whatever they want around me, i dont think thats fair do you?

I'm over not having a car and having to have other people drive me and my kids around, when 9 times out of 10 the ride falls through and i have to either cancel or become over stressed to find a new ride, because it can never fall through a couple of days before your appointment it has to fall through the day before or on that day, i want to have my own freedom back

Why cant i have a straight forward pregnancy? why does mine have to have a lot of problems or be life threatening to myself or my unborn child's life? Why cant i have an easy one for? problem free?

Kids keep driving me mental, i think they are just at that age where they re pushing and being naughty to see what they can get away with and what they cant, Jason is going through the terrible 2's with force, if there is anything to get into he is into it, deacan has just started biting and pinching and they are both just so CLINGY!!!! i know they re just kids and they are just pushing their boundaries though seriously enough is enough

this is more than likely my hormones though just need to get it out