Almost 3 1/2 years

its almost been 3 1/2 years since we said good bye to Bryce, i still get really teary eyed thinking about him and the what "ifs"  some days are really good like the pain is still there though its not hurting as much as it normally does. though there are still days where i would do anything i could to bring him back and hate myself  for not holding him that much, for not telling him every single day i carried him inside me,


Wow this must make me sound so selfish...  As i have two adorable little boys here at home with me, and another little peanut on the way, i do real love my boys i really do, though i guess i just wonder most days what it would  be like to have 3 little boys running around home with me